Surprise – 2 pink lines

Today marks 4 weeks pregnant.  When my period was late, I didn’t think that I was actually pregnant.  I had a couple bouts of spotting when I was supposed to get my period, and a couple days of spotting leading up to it.  Spotting has always been normal for me; my period has been irregular for quite some time and I think it was due to the amount of stress I was under for the past year.  However, when I looked at my period tracker app and it said 6 days late, but my boobs were tender, I got a little bit nervous.  I thought it was coming because my boobs always get tender leading up to my period, but it just didn’t.  Spotting stopped and my period never started.

Finally, I went and bought a pregnancy test.  Sure enough, two pink lines appeared.  My boobs are tender because that’s the first sign of pregnancy.  My mind was spinning.  I didn’t plan for this, I wasn’t prepared for this.  I don’t even know how to handle this news.  I had a few good cries.  And to think they suggested removing my uterus and left me with a feeling of not being able to get pregnant.

Now it’s time to accept and embrace.  I’m having a baby.  It still doesn’t feel real.  I have my first doctor’s appointment on Wednesday and maybe that’s when things will start to sink in?  So, I wanted to document how I’ve felt throughout this process because I couldn’t find much out there with regards to adenomyosis and pregnancy.  There is a lot of ‘high risk’ concerns but no ‘real life’ stories.  I’m completely terrified because I have no idea what to expect.  I’m nervous because I feel like my body is still healing from my previous issues.  Now, I have to change my entire mentality.

One morning on my way to work, I had a wave of nauseous come over me.  I thought I was going to puke in my car and have to turn around.  It was the weirdest feeling for me because I never get sick.  I might get a cold because I’m under a lot of stress but I can’t tell you the last time I had the flu.  The feeling passed and the rest of the work day was fine.  That was before I knew I was pregnant.  Once I found out, everything made sense.

During my 3rd -4th weeks of pregnancy, I had never felt more tired in my life.  I’m a very active and energetic person, I go to the gym daily and I love playing sports.  I couldn’t do any of that.  I could barely make it through the work day and I was now going to sleep by 9pm at the latest.  I had only one other wave of nauseous in the morning which passed.  My tummy has been very active though.  Feels like there’s constant grumblings going on.  Sometimes it’s like baby cramps and feels like your body is trying to digest, but it’s constantly feeling like that, not just after meals.  Nothing painful or unbearable.

I think I’ve worked out 3-4 times in the last two weeks.  My body does feel tired all the time.  I am taking it very slow as I’ve read the first trimester is very taxing on the body.  I’m hoping that as I progress through, I will be able to keep my activity levels up at the gym throughout this pregnancy.

My Goals:

  • Stay active
  • Be positive
  • Embrace
  • Research
  • Keep my hormonal outbursts in check
  • Don’t panic
  • Document the process

You can follow along in my bump process through Instagram here

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New Year, New Me?

What can I say about 2017?  It has been one of the most hectic years of my life.  I’ve had some doozy (sticking with that word) years but this one comes close to topping the cake.  I put a lot of pressure on myself when planning things and I can be an emotional bundle of joy (sarcasm) and can sometimes take things personally.

While I will own that I’m not perfect and I try to remind myself after all the feels take over, that everything is an experience.  These are stories, that I will always have to tell.  Some I will look back and say ‘what was I thinking’, some I will say ‘while that was tough, I’m happy it happened’ and then there will be my favorites of ‘Thank God I did that!’.

This year has been a year of a lot of ups and downs, and while all that was happening my relationship with wine grew deeper and I now have a new-found love: Champagne.  My relationship with champagne this year has flourished and I’ve enjoyed every bottle I’ve popped.

I have gained some friends and I have lost some along the way.  I struggled this year in every aspect of my life.  In my personal relationships, my friendships, with my family and with work.  All year I felt like I was drowning and I couldn’t hide it, but I couldn’t fix it.  I had to fight the waves and while it took its tolls, I think I’ve made it through.  I’m just waiting for those aftershocks to pass through.

While 2017 was me weathering the storm, 2018 I plan on being the storm (in a positive way). I wanted to take the time to remind myself of all the experiences and fun times I did get to enjoy this year.

This time last year, I was ringing in the new year with 30 friends and family at an epic pajama party in my house.  It was just FUN.  How a new year should start off.

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Against my best financial judgement, I traveled to Iceland.  It was an amazing experience and I am so happy I went as I knew I would never get that opportunity again.  It was only 4 days, but we packed them full of excitement.

 

My bridesmaids threw me an amazing bachelorette.  They knocked it out of the park and I was happy to have some college besties make it out as well.

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I spent a couple of nights down at the beach with a bottle of champagne, watching the sunset.  It is something that we take for granted and don’t tend to appreciate.

My MOH threw me a surprise bridal shower.  I said I didn’t want one but she went out of her way to help plan a little one for me and it was very thoughtful.

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I got married! It almost killed me but I planned an epic wedding.

I brought my family together.  My siblings and I have not all been together in probably close to 5 years.  While it was short-lived, it happened and it meant a lot to me.

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I spent some fun weekends away with some amazing people and enjoyed several concerts. Ed Sheeran, Dallas Smith, Halsey.

Even though it rained a lot this summer, I enjoyed my sports and those I played with!

The classic wine show.  I think it’s been a 5 year tradition now to go and it’s always my b-day weekend.  Never a bad time.

I got to sit back and enjoy other friends getting married.

I threw another epic New Years party to ring in the new year.


It will be a different year, full of different experiences. New friends and old. There are plenty more bottles to pop and happy memories to go with them.

Cheers!

Cork Board Photo Frames

I’ve been a little under the weather this week which has pushed me to slow down and spend some more time at home.  So last night I decided to organize my craft room a little bit.  It’s been driving me nuts as I’ve just been shoving things everywhere and there’s no rhyme or reason to anything.

I’ve got stickers, ribbons, markers, everything and it’s hard to sort through.  I found these wooden sticks that I broke off hangers laying around.  I decided to take some ribbon, hang them up and put all my ribbon roles on the sticks.  They’re hanging from the hanger bar in the closet.

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I also found some square cork boards that I forgot I got awhile ago from the Dollarstore.  I’ve been sitting on some photos from the Toronto Food and Wine Show that I’ve been dying to do something with.  So I pulled them all out and threw them on the floor and continued my scavenger hunt through my stuff.  I’ve got a big box of ‘Stuff’  that I just throw everything ‘crafty’ in.

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Got some new Heidi Swap Ribbon from the clearance section at Michael’s the other day and thought, what a better time to use it than with my cork board picture frame I wanted to make.

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I laid out my photos in the best way I could find they would fit on the boards and picked the ribbons I wanted to use.

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Layout

I then started to wrap the ribbon around the cork board to best hold the photos in place.  I just had to staple the ribbon to the back of the board.  To make sure they stayed as even as possible I used a ruler to measure the ribbon on each corner and to ensure it was placed evenly down the middle on both boards.

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Cork Board

I added the photos and put a little tape on the back of each to ensure they stay in place.  I’m not sure how well the tape will hold but hopefully it’s enough between the tape and the ribbon.

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Cork Board

And below is the final product of the two.  Just need to find the perfect place to hang them now 🙂

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Cork Board Photo Frames

 

Unconventional Thank you’s

So our wedding day has finally come and gone.  It was definitely the most stressful year of my life.  I have never been more up and down than I have been this past year and it was all consuming.  After all the planning, fun times and stressful ones as well we had a perfect day.  I could not have asked for it to have gone any more flawlessly.

So I’m a bit behind as my life hasn’t slowed down like I thought it would. I’m just getting around to my thank you’s now and I know they should have gone out a month ago.  As we are now entering Christmas time, I wanted to do something completely different.  Our amazing photographer’s were able to capture almost every single guest at our wedding and take some awesome photos of them.

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So I’ve taken an afternoon to write out 50+ personalized Christmas cards.  In each card I am sending the photo’s that the photographers were able to capture of our guests.  I am also sending out a photo of us from our wedding as well.  I think it’s a nice touch that they will get to keep the photo’s of them, because who really wants photos of us? (Kidding)

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So I also attempted to put my calligraphy skills back to work.  I haven’t done calligraphy since my wedding invites went out.  So because I already had a pretty intense hand cramp from the cards, my calligraphy was not good at all.  I also didn’t ensure my lines were straight because I really just needed to get them written.  So my attempts were there and hopefully people appreciate that still.

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Lastly, I bought this cool stamp from the calligraphy store.  I attempted to use it when I sent the invites out but again, wasn’t successful.  I’ve made a second attempt at a wax seal and hope this adds the final personal touch we were looking for.

These were rushed as I knew I wouldn’t have time to continue to focus on these and the clock is ticking on Christmas.  Hope the efforts are still appreciated by those receiving them!

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Small note to self and anyone else who is going through the efforts of personalizing Thank you cards to be sent out to all their guests, do everything in alphabetical order!  I definitely learned this lesson the hard way but not alphabetizing my envelopes, cards and then finding the corresponding photos.  I spent way more time on this than I probably needed to if I had done everything alphabetically.  I enjoyed the process and am happy to finally be done the last steps of my wedding.

 

Femme Fatal Fantasy Football

So the ladies and I decided to start a ladies fantasy football league.  This is our second successful year and we’ve even expanded the league. Even though I don’t watch or follow football I’m having fun learning and trying to get into it.  As many of us are learning and we’ve created this league to bring us together more, our commissioner created some amazing instructions on how a fantasy league works.  As she did such an amazing job, I thought they should be shared with other ladies looking to do the same  don’t need to know football to join a league and fantasy leagues aren’t just for boys!

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As we are in year two, we’ve decided it’s time to give our league a name and create a trophy for the winner.  It’s not official yet but I think so far we’ve decided on Femme Fatal Fantasy.  Something along those lines.  So being the crafty one that I tend to be sometimes I volunteered to make us a trophy.  As you may learn, I tend to enjoy the odd bottle of wine or champagne.  And with every bottle I open, I keep the corks.  I am always finding corks every time I dig through any of my purses.

So I set out to trying to design a trophy that represents the league, has a girly feel, and encompasses football.  I headed off to Walmart because I knew I needed a nerf football, what  I was going to do with it, I wasn’t sure yet.  So I found my football, perfect size and all.  Colours were not my style so I had to pick up some spray paint.  I decided on black because I wanted to bejewel the thing and I thought the jewels would pop better on black.

Next we had to hit up the dollar store to get some bejewling items and any other possible inspiration. So I get home and I start looking around my house and in my craft supply box to see what I can use.  I have a wine decanter collecting dust on my shelf (the wine doesn’t last long enough to decant) and I think, this could be the perfect stand for my football.

In my craft room I have one slab of wood left from my wedding centre pieces.   Very rustic and cute and I decide this is the perfect base for the trophy.  Sooo now I have a million corks hanging around because I have all these grand crafting plans.  So I fill the decanter up with corks.

I decided to use the jewels to look like laces on the football.  Somehow I got lucky and had the perfect amount available. 

Glued my decanter to the slab of wood, added some jewels to the decanter and cut a circle in my football, added some glue and glued it to the top of the decanter.


I added more jewels around the top because you really can’t have too many, can you?  I also felt like you couldn’t have too many corks on display either.  Popping bottles is a full time job in my world so there’s never a shortage.


I used a different wine cork for each part of the outter area and made sure all the names were facing outwards.  I glued the corks around the entire perimeter of the decanter and added a bow to tie it all together.  And when I was done, this was my final product:

I hope this post has been helpful for anyone looking to participate in a ladies fantasy league and wish me luck in winning mine so the trophy can be displayed in my own home.  It’s too pretty I don’t want to have to part with it ❤️😊

Happiness & Heartbreak

It has been a whirlwind of a month of good times and sad times.  I had a great getaway week with some of my best friends down south and got to lay back in the hot sun relaxing and having fun. There was 13 of us that went on a trip and we had a great time from beginning to end.  I was faced with a couple challenges along the way but made sure I didn’t let them get me down!

So we land in Dominican and as soon sis I walk off the plane, a gust of wind hits me and I get a rock in my eye! I have the most sensitive eyes, they tear up just from light. So I’m standing in line waiting to go through customs and both my eyes are watering so bad! I litterally look like I’m bawling my eyes out. Thankfully they didn’t stop me at customs.

So I head to the washroom once I make it through and try to wash my eye out… No success. So the bawling continues all the way to the resort. It is so painful I don’t want to blink or look in any direction as I can just feel it scratching my eyeball. Get to the resort and it’s the afternoon so we’re getting ready for an early dinner, still can’t cry this thing out of my eye. I also can’t see anything in my eye

So we head to dinner and I have to carry Kleenex around with me to continue dabbing the tears that won’t stop falling. I’m now exhausted and my eyes are burning from crying all afternoon. Make it through dinner and were all sitting in the lobby drinking afterwards. All of a sudden I blink and I don’t feel any pain! I blink and blink again and I feel nothing! Excitement overtakes me and I start waving my hands and tell everyone I have an announcement to make! I yell “my eyeball is free, it’s gone!” Sooo happy, even though I couldn’t wear makeup the next couple days as my eyelid is swollen, red and sore.

Rest of the trip was a great time, hit up the disco every night, did get a cold mid trip and also came home sick and lost my voice. Walked into the casino with $0 and walked out with $30, a hat and shirt. Had some great luck at the black jack table!

Then it was time for it all to end. Had to head home back to reality. So I come home, only to find out my baby girl (cat) was not doing to good. She slowly stopped eating over 3 days and I didn’t think she was going to make it through the night. I spent half the night laying on the floor with her, saying my goodbyes, crying and hoping she would peacefully go through the night. She finally left me to go elsewhere in the house so I went to bed.

I woke up in the morning and ransacked the house to find her and see if she was okay. She was hiding in a cold dark space in the basement. I brought her upstairs and tucked her in a blanket on the couch and had to leave for the day. I came straight home from work and found her laying in the cold dark basement again.

I spent the evening laying in bed with her and my other cat. We snuggled the whole evening until she moved to the floor and I moved down with her. I was praying she would go peacefully but it didn’t seem to be in the plan. She was very docile the whole time, until something went wrong. We then had to rush her to the emergency vet and they gave her a pain killer and relaxant. They thought she would relax and go naturally, but she was holding on. I think she was scared and wanted to fight.

Finally the vet came in and said we should probably euthanize her. My heart just broke harder because it was now real… She was officially going to leave me for good. 11 wonderful years, I rescued her from being putdown back then, saved her from whatever abusive place she was left behind from and helped her to love and trust humans again.

I am heartbroken she’s now gone. It’s always one of the hardest things in life to face. I cried so much for the next couple days, felt like I was in a big slump. Didn’t want to get out of bed… But now we have to keep moving on.

Bottle opener plaques

I inherited a bunch of old bottle openers that used to be installed in out hotel rooms where I work.  They’re the little metal ones you screw into the wall.  I wanted to make some gifts for Christmas for my finances brothers for when they have their own man caves.  So I headed out to Michele’s and found some small wooden plaques for $5 each.  

 
So I will admit that the wood I chose wasn’t strong enough.  I wasn’t sure how I was going to reinforce the plaques but I wanted to proceed with the project and figure the rest out later.  As I was making these for specific people I thought I would keep it simple and just put their initials on each of their plaques.  So I picked my colours and traced each of their initials out and got to painting.

  
I had some old wood left over in my garage so I had my fiancé cut me a couple and I used them to reinforce the plaques.  I painted the backs black as well but I didn’t bother with the wood finish.  I only put wood finish on the front of the plaques.  I used wood glue to stick the pieces of wood together as I knew once I screwed the bottle openers on it would also help with the reinforcement.

  
Then I drilled screw holes into the plaques and ensured they didn’t go through the letters in the front of the plaques.  As the bottle openers were extremely rusty, I did buy spray paint to paint them chrome and hide the rustiness.  The bottle openers look like new!

  

Tada! My gifts are complete! New I just need to come up with the perfect idea for my own bottle opener design!